Praise the Lord!
We have been waiting and waiting and even though this morning's rain didn't last very long, it raises hope. It reminds us that there is an end to everything, even draught.
Oh, how thirsty all the yards and gardens are in the neighborhood. Each lovely home is surrounded by a moat of crackly straw. The pond in the wetland is dry to the last drop, and I wonder about all the life that pond normally supports. The critters who called the pond home truly know what it means to be thirsty.
Summer vs Winter
Maybe I should pretend it's winter. I love winter and find the coziness of staying inside during the winter to be a productive and creative time for me. With a shawl wrapped around my shoulders I delight in doing the next thing or nothing. Either way is a choice. However, the summer heat encourages neither productivity or creativity in me, only apathy. I am restless, but lack energy to find direction. In the winter I relish the indoor time, but in these days of scorching, breath-taking heat, I resent the closed windows, the fake coolness (even as I am grateful for it!), and I want porch time restored. I want relief from the draught.
What would satisfy my thirst and end my inner draught?
Can I move from a state of emptiness and inertia to Sabbath time?
Ending the Inner Draught
I just finished reading a book called Chasing Matisse, A Year in France Living My Dream by James Morgan (www.chasingmatisse.com) in which the author lists his desires. "Read. Write. Paint. Think. Travel." So clear and clean. He unveiled his thirsts and even though, as he adds, "Not that it's ever as simple as that," he has found a way to live his desires.
I practiced a list in my head almost unwilling to commit my yearnings to writing, for what would it mean if I stated them so directly and clearly? What excuses would I have to overcome? How would I have to live in spite of the draught?
If that exercise seems too hard, Alice D. Doar, author of Live a Little! offers another opportunity in the August O, The Oprah Magazine. Complete the following statements, but don't think too long about any of them.
I could blow an entire rainy afternoon___________________
When I was a kid, I used to love________________________
I've always wanted to become really good at______________
If I could do one thing every day of my life, it would be_____
I can lose track of time when I'm________________________
Nothing clears my head like____________________________
When I'm feeling drained, all I want to do is_______________
I feel most connected to my body when I'm________________
In my daydreams, I imagine myself______________________
I get a shot of energy when I___________________________
Any surprises? What do your responses reveal? Are there any changes you want or need to make in your life in order to live more authentically? Is there anything you are thirsting for that can be fulfilled even in times of summer dryness?
Here are my answers:
I could blow an entire rainy afternoon reading.
When I was a kid, I used to love to ride my bike.
I've always wanted to become really good at singing.
If I could do one thing every day of my life, it would be to write and to hug my grandchildren.
I can lose track of time when I'm writing.
Nothing clears my head like making a list and writing in my journal.
When I'm feeling drained, all I want to do is eat and read.
I feel most connected to my body when I'm doing T'ai Chi.In my daydreams, I imagine myself thin and a published author.
I get a shot of energy when I complete all or a part of a writing project or when I am in the midst of a substantial conversation.Reading my answers I notice ways I can easily enhance my life and choices I can make that will help me balance Body, Mind, and Spirit. Furthermore, none of my responses, except perhaps riding a bike, is related to the weather at all! Nor is my list of desires, which I finally dare to write down.
Read. Write. Spend time with family and friends. Pray. Teach.
Any season is the right time to connect with your essence. Any weather is the perfect time to do what nurtures your soul and gives life to who you were created to be.